I'm a very casual person when it comes to relationships... friends, dates, lovers, fuckers, whatever... I take what's offered and don't demand more... as long as it's fun, as long as I'm enjoying myself, I'm usually fine with it... the unfortunate part is that every so often someone has to be rotten and mess up your mind... I believe the term is 'head games'...
when someone is completely up front about what they want and what to expect from them, and you agree that this is perfectly fine and then you build whatever type of relationship on this supposition... but then they do something completely different, what the fuck... must people be dicks?
anyway, because I internalize things, I need to vent and since I expect the recipient of my tirade below will never get the damn email or will ignore it and toss it in the recycle bin, I'm posting it here so I can feel better that I've said it and that I can remind myself that relationships of any sort aren't always pretty, and that men and woman, as nice as they may seem can be as frustrating and maddening as stepping on a nail...
my rant on email is as below:
I hope you'll at least take a minute to read this.
I was quite happy with the fact that you weren't interested in a relationship and that after a few weeks you'd grow bored with me and move on. You were very up front with that from the moment we met. Living in gay Halifax, this isn't unusual, it's the life we all live...
I was completely unprepared for being ignored without even so much as an "it was fun, now get lost". Of all the things you could have done, ignoring me was the one thing that hurts me the most. I can forgive a lot of things, but I have little tolerance for people that ignore me, it's the height of rudeness... especially when it's from someone I considered a friend. I expected more than that from you, it was very disappointing.
I won't call or email you anymore, I'm not a freaky stalker, I just wanted you to know how hurt I was and that you've upset me by being so callous. (That and I needed to vent and get this off my chest) Unfortunately, we live in a small gay world and I'll probably see you downtown, just don't expect me to smile and wave.
Take care of yourself and watch out for ***, she's fragile,
dc
May the sands of time erase the annoyance and frustration over this brief blurb in my book of life. Out out damn spot!
Forsooth!
