could it?

once upon a time, in a land, far far away.. a car broke down in the middle of a trip, at about 4:30 in the morning, in the darkness... it broke down due to sheer stupidity on the drivers part... the car came to rest on a little dirt road in the middle of nowhere, also known as Crooked Creek... with no cel phone at hand, the weary driver waited for morning to come and then walked a little ways down the road until he found a house... he knocked on the door and asked to use the phone, the kind lady let him in and gave him a number to call for a truck that would come to tow the miserable beast to the nearest garage... truck on the way, he gave the lady his sincere thanks and she wished him a good day, to which he replied, "well, it couldn't get any worse..." she admonished him and said, "don't say that, because it really could get worse" and he thought long and hard about that... years later, he has never forgotten her words, or her kindness in allowing a total stranger into her home... the ride to the nearest mechanic was an hour and a half towing the car along, and it was mid afternoon by the time the car was towed into the mechanics lot... the mechanic was readying to close for the weekend, the shop was scheduled to close in an hour, but he smiled and nodded to the stupid driver and said he'd take a quick look... the tow truck driver related the story of how the stupid driver had the misfortune of breaking down and had another 4 hours of driving to his destination... the mechanic smiled and opened up the beastly car, sure enough he figured it out in a few moments and said he'd have it done before they closed for the day... the stupid driver spent an hour or so in a small diner eating a homemade burger and a lovely vanilla milkshake, and tanks to a kind lady, a friendly tow truck driver and a smart and compassionate mechanic, he was able to make his way to his destination that very night... the moral of the story is that however bleak the world may seem, however bad a day might be, there is always something good to be found, even in the middle of nowhere...

pure heat

It's amazing what a mid day catnap can do for you... Insomnia is a regular part of my life, but lately it's been extra pesky and I haven't been getting my proper sleep. Today I had a 3 hour break in between sessions at work so I decided I would go home and eat and take a quick nap so I would be sharp at work. So I ate, read a book for about 15 minutes and felt dozey, flipped on the alarm as backup and hit the pillow. Zzzz... how nice. The dream I had was better than the sleep.

I woke up in the middle of the dream and felt like I was in a flashback of some sort... I had been dreaming about an experience a few years ago... my girlfriend at the time had mild exhibitionist tendencies... well, we both did... or do... whatever, anyway the dream was about a time we had gone swimming at a local beach and we were both in the mood, so I pulled my car down a short path off the main road, we got naked and went at it. The circumstances were a bit odd and really had me startled when I woke up out of the dream. That day was extremely hot and where we parked the car, we were surrounded by flowering trees and shrubs pushed right up against the windows... there were dozens of bees and wasps all around us so we couldn't open any of the windows.. basically the car turned into an easy bake oven. So there we were in the intense heat, sweating half to death, making love in a car, surrounded by flowers and trees, the sound of bees all around and soome crazy wind coming down the path... it's one of the most intense sexual experiences I have ever had... hot sweaty lusty lovemaking... and the point of the dream that I woke up was her on top of me, screaming loudly, she bends down and grabs my head, leans in to kiss me and poof, I wake up.

I literally sat straight up in bed, looked around and said out loud, 'What the fuck is going on?" A very mind-boggling and surreal dream experience, and it took me several minutes to figure out where I was and that the dream was really something years in the past... and then I had to get up and go right to work. Talk about a bum deal... Whatever, it was nice to revisit something that way, intense and crazily awakening in another time and place... I have very fond memories of that moment in my life and it still plays that realistically in my memories... I close my eyes and I can still see her looking down at me, I can here the bees and the wind, I can taste the salty sweet taste of her skin on my lips and smell the scent of two people in the throes of uninhibited lusty sex amplified by unreal temperatures in that little old car... life is good I say, life is good. 30 years from now I hope it's still as clear and vivid in my mind, I'll certainly never be lonely at the old folks home...

sigh

I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you

No I don't wanna fall in love
This world is only gonna break your heart

No I don't wanna fall in love
This world is only gonna break your heart

With you.

- Chris Isaak

"my god, she looks like anime!"

i must confess that anime is cool, but the extent to which some people go on about it is downright silly... but I have to admit that I've always thought that if one of the characters could step off the page, or come out of the TV and be real, I'd have to admit that they are cute... last night i ran across someone that looked like she'd been drawn into real life from a cartoon... what a rush. startling. fantastically different. a friend told me that it's quite common in asian countries to find people that look remarkably alike to anime superstars, to the point they're near perfect emulations of them. impressive i guess, i just thought that the girl looked cool, and in some strange way i thought it was kindof sexy... something different to think about anyway. someone paid me a compliment last night at the club that was so nice in a "gee, that's really cool man! thanks!" kindof way... he said I looked like George Stroumboulopoulos which made me sigh happily internally and grin like 3 year old in a candy shop externally. it was really was nice to hear. George is a sexy man with an intense personality, and i think he's damn hot. a comment that definitely made its mark in the annals of my 30th birthday. the cake my friends got me was another memorable moment, as i wasn't expecting it and i think we were all scared half to death that the candles were going to set the house on fire. a good laugh that's for sure, i think the intense light scarred my retinas... thirty seems just as fun as twenty, so i guess that my fond memories of birthdays will continue, at least until i hit fifty, then i think i'll have to at least reconsider growing up. but that's for another day, down the road. fuck what a fun night, and what a fun day.

my internal chronometer is rolling over...

much like a child, I still view the world through eyes of innocence...
but I'm wearing the nappy of experience and it is full of shit...

last day as a person with a 2 at the beginning of their age. old age ensues... luckily I'm both Peter Pan and immortal, so it's not really an issue... seems to be an issue to everyone else though, I just can't figure it out... ah well, I'll let everyone else cry over their age, I'll just smile and nod and chuckle behind my hand.

now pass me my fucking cake!