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I have given a name to my pain and it is Batman.
- Jack Nicholson as The Joker, Batman

I am lost.

Rudderless, lacking direction, without a guiding force, unmotivated...

I haven't had even the slightest desire to write anything lately, here or elsewhere, as I can't think. My mind went on hiatus. Siesta. I lack any type of focus, and life is all wound up around indecision and meaningless thought patterns. I am regretting my latest decision, to accept a full time position at the office... no more term position on contract, but a full fledged employee. I want to turn and run, screaming... and I don't know why.

My only thoughts lately have been to pack up and move to my hometown and find a job there... but I really want to make things work here... but these are just thoughts, my main problem is I don't know what I want to do, and I don't know where I want to do it...

So, my head is spinning and I'm getting worn out from over thinking everything, and being lost.

I need something, but what?