The cost of freedom

I feel the bricks of the wall behind me. The surface is rough and scrapes my hands, but I have nothing else to hold on to. The streetlight above is the only thing I can focus on, the rest of the world is spinning. I close my eyes and try to calm down because if I don't it's all going to go wrong. It is done, I am finished. I'm so tired and there's nothing left to do now but leave. He told me it would be hard to leave him here alone, but I can handle it. I open my eyes, but it hurts to see what I've done. There's so much blood. So much blood. I didn't have a choice, he made me promise. I have never broken a promise to him, I can't even lie to him. What do I do now, it all seems so wrong. I stand up and take off the last of my clothes. I think my legs will hold me up now. I walk away without looking back. Only the stars keep me company, I am alone.