Sometimes you have to wade through the darkness to appreciate the light.
I just wish I was was doing less wading today and more basking in the sun. Unfortunately, it piss poured rain since yesterday, so both figuratively and literally there was no sun to bask in. Stupid sun. Oh well, I have very little to complain about in life right now. Things are going really well for me and I'm pretty happy most of the time. The dark clouds in my mind have to come fuck it up every so often, but hell... I'm only human. I had to have a talk with Colin this morning about something I didn't want to bring up. Luckily he's attentive when I need him and understanding about the silliness of my ever fluctuating mental states. But gods above, some things are so hard to talk about. I look at my life and in comparison to most others, I've had a much better than average life. The really bad shit I've gotten myself into sometimes seems trivial compared to the advantages and sheer good luck I've had in life, but it's left its mark. I sometimes wonder if I'm scarred for life... then again, some scars don't heal, and some shouldn't. Reminders of mistakes and what we've lived through are a part of who we are and keep us on track to not make the same mistakes again. I sound so gloomy today... damn introspection, I'm actually in a good mood. I'll imagine some sun and go from there.
