Today was a two movie day. Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind in the theatre and then 21 Grams at home on a rental. What a mindfuck all that turned out to be...
Both movies are rather surreal and follow no flowing timeline, but jump all over the place. Both are make-you-think movies. Both have really off the wall camera angles and filming techniques. Both of them rock.
Eternal Sunshine did a number on my head. For the first time in as long as I can remember, I felt terror. A split second of mind numbing terror. This is very uncharacteristic for me and it really made for an interesting day. The cause was not a particular scene in the movie, but a scene played out in my own mind, as if I was in a situation like the lead character. Joel, played by Jim Carrey, makes a decision to have some of his memories erased. During the procedure he changes his mind, but cannot stop the erasing. That's where my mind went on a little tangent. I pictured myself in a situation like that where people were stealing my memories from me and I was helpless to stop it. I have a gluttonous lust for experiences and I store them in a cast iron box deep inside my mind so that they can't be lost. The simple thought of someone stealing them so I would never be able to recollect my experiences or even know I had them dropped my mind right into an icy bucket of water and a chill went right up my spine. That all happened in under a few seconds, but what a rush. The rest of the movie tripped me out, but I've been thinking about my own little mind-movie since I left the theatre. Watching 21 Grams just tripped me out more. All this thinking has worn me out, so if I can get my mind to shut down, I'll sleep like a baby.
If all my memories were stolen, I'd be back in a state just like a newborn baby... argh!! Shut up, stoopid brain... go to sleep.
I forgot about the field mouse. A sad memory of mine that oddly enough I had been thinking about this morning, and there's a scene in the movie that is very similar... I had dropped of a resume today and during the 10 block walk to my car, my mind went on a tangent into the status quo of nature and the symbiotic relationship of the creatures on the planet. It went on from there...
What a day.
