Sunday, February 29, 2004

Facile credo, plures esse Naturas invisibiles quam visibiles in rerum universitate.

I dreamt of fire today and it was an odd dream, occurring during a short afternoon nap. I was filling up my car at a gas station that I pass every day on the way to work. I never go to this gas station, it is in a terrible location for traffic. I would never consciously go to this gas station, it gives me a bad vibe. So being there filling up my car was the first odd thing about the dream. As I stood there pumping the gas, there were many other people doing the same. As I came back to the car from paying, I noticed that there was a small blue flame flickering on the passenger side near the hood. It looked like an alcohol flame, the near invisible type, which puzzled me as there are no components involving alcohol on my car. I tried to blow out the flame, and the body of the car itself began to burn and disintegrate outwards in a radial pattern slowly from where the blue flame had started. At this point in the dream I begin to panic, as I can remember hearing a story from a friend about a fire at a gas station and how close they came to having the whole place explode and take out half a neighborhood. So I start looking around for something to douse the fire, a cloth or a stick or a bucket of water... there is nothing at all nearby that I can use. I start yelling to warn the others and everyone is gone. I look around and their cars are still there, everything else looks the same, but all the people are gone. So I am standing all alone at a gas station, my car parked beside a pump and the car is shortly going to go up in a ball of flames. I start to run away but I can't. I know that if I run and the station explodes, I will be the one responsible for half a neighborhood being destroyed and all the lives that will be lost. This gas station is nestled directly in the middle of a large neighborhood. Houses are literally packed all around it. So in the dream I am totally alone, but I know that all the houses around me have people in them and I can't let them die. I make a decision: I have to drive the car as far away from the station as I can get it before it is totally covered in flame, so that the station will not explode. I look at my car and the front passenger side is covered in flame and disintegrating before my eyes. I run back to the car and just as I am about to open the drivers side door and get in, I wake up.

Future echoes.