I looked at my post from yesterday. So serious and deep. Bwahahahahaaa...

*smile*

Of course, it was only the beginning of a long train of thoughts that will go on for some time. I suffer from extreme mood swings. Yesterday I was serious and somber. Today I was in a foul mood, but lunchtime came and now I’m all hyper and cheery. Mood swings are not an obvious thing to those around me because it's all kept inside. And it’s only occasional, I’m generally happy-go-lucky and ‘one with the universe… at peace with all things’. When it happens though, it’s like the Titanic sinking… it hits me fast and my mood bounces around all crazy-like for days. The only thing people notice is how loud I am. Bad moods make me even quieter than usual, good moods and I’m fairly chatty.

A co-worker was shocked when I told her I was grumpy today. In 6 months of working together it’s the first time I’ve said that. Mood swings… can’t live with ‘em, can’t live without ‘em. Work has been uninteresting, and only my co-workers make it bearable.

And I want to spend more time with my current love interest. But he’s younger, quiet and doesn’t have quite the same feelings I have. Makes for a long and dreary day when you want nothing more than to go cuddle up with someone and you know you can’t.