and so it goes

I sat across from him this evening, wondering what I should say. Not much of anything, nothing really special. I looked over and he looks the same as he did a few years ago, a little tired and a little playful. For all that he seems subdued there is a twinkle in his eye that never leaves. I talked and he talked and we had an actual meaningful conversation that lasted more than 10 minutes, moreso than we'd ever done. And I enjoyed myself. I enjoyed being there with him. I liked that he asked me to get together again, rather than me asking him which is where I thought the evening would eventually head to. Not only that, there may be more in the near future. He likes the outdoors and so do I. He wants to do outdoorsy things this summer and so do I. All I did was say I would like to go with him and he smiled and said he would like that. I know he may never be anything more than a friend and I am content with that. But he is a bit dreamy and I am a dreamer. I can't help but wonder what else more could there be if things were just a little bit different. Maybe I will find out and maybe I won't. I'll enjoy what I have which is his company and his smile and be happy.